what happens when you see something you've hoped all your life you'll never see? some people become hysterical. some people shut up. some try and shred the past into pieces. it doesnt work. i've tried it. i know. why is it that some people never get what they want? why do you have to have at least one person on that dreaded other side? im tired of explaining the difference between a crush and something more. im fed up of being laughed at by everyone. even those who pretend to understand. maybe after all this, it should just go away. common human decency. should i be careful what i wish for? maybe...i see him. nice. her. a killer. a long time ago i had vowed that i would kill her, without knowing who she was. no wonder my friend didnt believe me. didnt think i had the guts. i didnt. i dont. once some one very nice almost dragged me to meet him. hand-writing analyst. thank you. but what happened? nothing. nothing happens. shit happens, yes. nothing else. sometimes i long for a magic wand to...no, i have a lot to be thankful for. i am. truly. but what do i do with that tiny black&white newspaper cut-out which i tried so hard to blot out, in a cab on a sunny afternoon not so long ago? when will it go away? ever?
4 comments:
your right, almost as usual. but its still a bizarre world out there, isnt it?
I belive you got that from...
The Book of Sandy-isms(2000)- 'You never get what you want'
The Best of Edited Sandy-isms
(2002) - 'You never get what you want, when you want it.'
But honestly...its not that some of us don't get it, its more about the fact that you become defensive about this. Perhaps some people like pulling your leg as a result. I don't think there is an malice involved.
nah its not about malice at all. but i guess when a crush becomes an obsession its time to realize you got a major problem on your hands
Hmmm...is it really a problem? I mean if its preventing a person from going around, perhaps in the vague hope that the fairytale will have a happy ending...then I guess you already know the answers.
Honestly, at some point in time, we've been through the same thing...all of us. When you step out of its shadow you sort of realize that it was a defence mechanism...a safety net of sorts. Secretly, you believe that no one could ever measure up...or share that pedestal. I's call it a feel good factor.
I wouldn't consider it to be a problem. Its all about finding the solution that works best for you.
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