another year. another exam. things seemed a bit diluted this time. coz i wasnt as involved as other times. how could i be with this darned office thing?!!! reached college so late today and i could hardly stay after it was over. such lovely weather outside. the last place i want to be in is this office. but what choice do i have? zilch. zilch, zilch, zilch.
felt a bit bad about fighting with mum this morning. i did not want to fight. but just coz i have office cant mean i cant go to college. especially on admissions day. mum is right about them not needing me. but then i need them. would she understand that bit? i dont know. mebbe she will. she just wants me to be ok, both physically and mentally. i understand her point too. but i have to do certain things too. life is so fucking confusing.
i know for certain the one thing that i like to do. that i want to do. have no one controlling my share of time. no one to tell me when to go where. no one to tell me that i cant leave when i want to. no one to bother me. ideal? i know. so who doesnt want an ideal life? i know at some point in time i will have to work to earn a living. and i know saying that i am still too young to be doing that is just being a shirker. but hey what's life without a dream??????????
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